Tonight on my drive home I was all of a sudden overcome with a feeling of foreboding. Not a good feeling to have while driving. It was not an anxiety attack but left me feeling uneasy. This was made much worse about 25 miles from home when the light fog became a heavy fog that continued to get heavier every mile.
All summer I put up with the construction zones. One Friday after work bumper to bumper traffic from one of our fine State Road workers painting lines on the road added about 40 minutes to my already too long drive. I understand the need for lines. Unfortunately, our State Road workers did not work fast enough. There is about 20 miles of my drive that the lines are missing on the outer edge of the road. On a sunny day, it is easy not to care. On a foggy evening like tonight the white line is how I drive in the fog. When the line is missing, it is stressful. Tonight will not be the only time I miss that line.
The last 5 miles of my drive I had high anxiety. Luckily, traffic was light. I know I can stay on the road and make the drive. The fear is some idiot that all of a sudden panics and stops. The fog was so thick I could not see the lights of my little village welcoming me home. I put on my blinker and keep a watch for the turn.
I was thankful to turn down my street tonight. I still have some anxiety. Not sure where it is coming from. I did some crocheting. That usually relaxes me. Even playing on my computer has not helped. Guess I should have stopped by Tru Stories and hugged my beautiful grand children.
Back to my crocheting. Think I will retire early tonight. Maybe my anxiety is caused from being tired. That or knowing I still have a few things to do to finish getting ready for the holidays. If the crocheting does not work, I will pick up a book and do some reading before bed.
2 comments:
Maybe the uneasy feeling is cuz you are never gonna finish your reading goal if you are always making stupid scarves. Focus!
Or...
You could have a 2 night slumber party for all 3 grandchildren. That is always a stress-reducing relaxer.
Just a thought.
Your stressed because you did not see me today to bring belly laughs your way. Relax and I will be there tommorrow bearing gifts. OL
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