The hives kept me up late last night. Hubby even went to bed before me. That does not happen very often. Well, never. I got my Christmas Village up. It is little, do not think of a HUGE production. My Santa collection is up. Now I need to decorate the tree. Tree decorating is not my thing! Unfortunately, I am stuck having to do it.
Tonight I am going out to dinner with Tru Stories and Coco. Going to listening to our favorite Duo. I will sit back and enjoy the music. I know that the time Joel is gone is our time to regroup. Sleep all night. (I hope that will happen.) Not have to worry if he is eating, or taking his medicine, or getting into something he should not be. I am going to enjoy this week-end. Spend time with some family and friends. Knowing that Joel is being taken care of by someone else. I cannot exhaust myself by visiting him all the time. Yesterday he was in his anger stage. Hating us for putting him there. Calling names. Not fun. Today we could not visit him. We had to get some paperwork handled for him. He needed some things from home. I used overnight mail to get him what he needed right away. Cost less than the drive.
This time I will pace myself. Do what I have to do. I cannot feel guilty for his being sick. I go back to work on Monday. I will put some of my needs first. Having my new little love Sassy sure does help. Silly as it sounds.
As I finish this I just received an angry call from Joel. He is not happy that we are not going to see him tomorrow. It is not that he cares to see us. It is more about what we can bring to him. When he can come home. There is nothing wrong with him. Why is he there. The usual song, I have heard him sing many times. I will not feel guilty, I will not feel guilty..........
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