Tonight I finished the book, Saving CeeCee Honeycutt by Beth Hoffman. This is the second time I read the book. I first read it in November. Today I read it for the book club. Still not sure if I will attend the meeting. Loved reading the book even more the second time around. This book has a beautiful cover and is a great story. I want to be in the story. Living the life in Savannah. I want these women to be my friends.
Today was another up and down day in my life. Seems like how it goes right now. First I had some Princesses stop by for tea (pink lemonade). One Fairy Butterfly. I was the Queen. I am not allowed to be a Fairy. Per bossy Tink's instructions, I always have to be the human. Story of my life. The tea party was wonderful. Nothing like a group of beautiful little girls to fill the house with giggles. My favorite part is when Hubby and Uncle would come near the party, the little girls would say; "No boys allowed." The party was under two hours. I was not sad to see all the Princesses leave.
Note my grand child has to be the one standing on her seat. The other grand child is missing due to a pout. Great nieces sitting where they should be.
Tink looks a bit under the weather. She had issues with the game of duck, duck, goose. She wanted to play Fairy Butterflies.
When I woke up this morning Uncle had not slept. I still had some hope that things were looking up. He seemed more agreeable. He was happy to see the little girls. I even felt organized and put chili in the crockpot. After the girls left Uncle's mood turned. I am trying to work on him smoking less. It worked during the morning. Then Uncle decided he was not going to play my one cigarette an hour game anymore. He threw a 3 yr. old tantrum. I stood up to him for awhile and then lost my temper. I left, went to my brother's and held their little dogs. Normally, I am not a big fan of poodles. But, I love my brother's poodle Josh. I sat and talked to Josh while my sister in law got dialysis going. Puppy calmed me, I came home for a nap. Uncle was calm when I got home. The major problem right now is, I do not have patience. I am exhausted. I am OVER it. Unfortunately, I cannot be over it. My emotions are not as controlled as they need to be.
One thing I have been trying to do is get out and walk. Exercise my body and hope it helps my spirit. I did not get my walk around the lake today. It is really more of a pond. It is called, Lion's Lake. It is 3/4 mile around. I really enjoy it. This is another place I got to find peace. One side of the pond is under trees, feels like I am walking in a forest. One side is open. I do not go out there alone. Really does not feel safe. When Hubby goes with me, he walks a lap, sits a lap. I think he likes how peaceful it is too.
Today I received this great text from Millhouse. It was her little boy SBR. Before he was born I sent him books. One of the books was Moo, Baa, Faa La La. Well SBR learned to say the La La part. When I figured out what he was saying I just started smiling and laughing out loud. Had to play it several times. Next thing I know tears are running down my face and I am having a ridiculous cry over his little voice. Then Millhouse sent me a text of SBR giggling and giggling. That is why I love my Millhouse. She knows what I need right now. It is very odd for me to be crying out of nowhere. For years I did not cry. I know that was a problem. I learned to repress my feelings a bit too much. I missed crying over sappy movies. I look forward to maybe having more normal emotions.
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The girls enjoyed the Tea Party. Though Tink had attitude all day. She was having an 'off day' herself. She's had nightmares 3 nights in a row. Not fun.
-Tink's tired mommy.
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